Back on the Horse

over 6 weeks have passed since the heartbreak of Ironman....i've gone through it time and time again in my head...i should have kept going, i should have kept going.
Its a tough thing to get over but i know that i was at the end...and that if i had kept going i would have missed the cut off anyway.
day to day my feeling on it changed....i will try again...to...i cant commit to the level of training required to finish.
I've managed to watch the TV coverage of it twice (great to see Steve-aka s11 get his mug on there)and the second time it hurt a little less....it did in fact manage to convince me that i HAVE to try again...i want that medal, i want to be an Ironman...so i have pre-registered and will enter again on the day it opens...get my Arse into gear and get training to finish it. I know i can do it, i wont be as fearful next time and i know where i have to make the time up in order to get to the line.
Most people have been incredibly supportive of my efforts. Cat (mrsB)deserves a special mention as not only did she drive around for 15 hours, she had to put up with my moods up and down in the aftermath and has been nothing but encouraging about me trying again. i think she'll even try a 70.3 herself this year. Thanks Babe...i love you

The season is almost finished now....i'm going to try and put some demons to bed in the next 2 weeks, starting with an Oly distance Tri at Tatton park this Sunday. i'm hoping to do under 3.15 total time...i've not really trained much and only been out on the bike once (about 10 miles) and haven't swam...so we'll see.

The following week will be my first marathon.
Me, Mrs B and our friend John will drive down to Berlin to run the Real Berlin Marathon....apparently one of the best 'major' marathons you can do and i'm really looking forward to it.
I'm not a runner by any means and again training hasn't been great (lack of motivation) with 12 miles the most i've run but having kept going for 13.5 hours at IMUK i'm confident i can run/walk it to the finish and get to the line and so end the season on a high note.

I'll do a race report for both and keep this blog going through the year (hoping i can persuade a few more people to read it) in the build up to another crack.

I Can - I Will